68114) I don’t remember the first time I ever binged, but I remember some of the first ones. I used to cry after each one. Now its just a part of life.
67910) I want to make myself so bad — just for the care and attention. I want the care and attention just so I could refuse it. And then I’d make myself even worse, and receive even more attention, which I’d push away. I don’t even understand the logic behind my motives anymore.